i just really don't think life could get worse. i feel sick, madder than a mad hadder... i just hate EVERYTHING right now. just so pissed off. i've been tring to hold my anger about things in lately because i dont want to explode on matt, because matthew is not to blame. its just i feel so mad. i feel so awful right now i just want to cry. everything seems to be happing all at once. EVERYTHING sucks. life... sucks.